Thanks to You in USA, Sweden, Israel, Ukraine, France, China, India, Spain, Russia, South Korea, Canada, Switzerland, Jordan, Indonesia, Slovakia, Romania, Vietnam, The Netherlands, Turkey, Thailand, Dubai and the Kingdom of Bahrain for reading and allowing this to be part of your healing and awareness journey. 2012 has been a blessing for some and great turmoil for others and it is in these times that my heart is in a state of profound reflection. It is in these times when I am so very grateful to you for sharing time with me here and for others in my life that I deeply care about.
I remember times in the child sex slavery that I suffered where I wanted to die and thought of it often and it was then that my imagination and the God-given ability to step into another realm saved me. It was then when catapulting myself to another existence through the human ability to dream was realized all the more.
It is this ability of the mind to transform itself that must be utilized in our healing. Going from a brothel experience and repeated rape, to a future that has purpose, destiny and freedom is what calls us. It is the survivor that will be the expert in the lives of those that need rescuing now and their road to life discoveries and wholeness that requires us to fight our way out of darkness.
It was from a place like this that I wrote this poem and I would like to share a short portion with you.
Taken from my book of poetry "To Soar Without Leaving The Ground" an excerpt from the poem The Miracles of Life."
"The miracles of life are as such that as for today I walk. I rose and life filled my legs. I could have cried because of chaos yet I rose because of life, I live to learn and grow, perfection is for God but in Him I am whole. I could have cried becasue I didn't get the job, but someone told me that divine delay is a blessing in disguise. Morning came and my eyes were open, I can see I thought and surely this cannot be bought. I sat in silence as I watched the animal of the tree, blue, yellow, and green... I saw joy and it spilled over in my heart, just sitting there waiting to catch me off guard and you know what he said? Smile, be joyous, don't fight this thing for my joy is your strength and strength is your time, time to live time to see, time to move until the move of you moves them and all you hope for comes to be..... (skipping to end of poem) You will find them in your joy, la milagros de vida, the miracles of life.
Author Terrie Williams didn't share her pain and this is some of her story.
"...Yet she was in constant pain, waking up in terror, overeating in search of relief. For thirty years she kept on her game face of success, exhausting herself daily to satisfy her clients' needs while neglecting her own. Terrie finally collapsed, staying in bed for days. She had no clue what was wrong or if there was a way out. She had hit rock bottom and she needed and got help.
She learned her problem had a name -- depression -- and that many suffered from it, limping through their days, hiding their hurt. As she healed, her mission became clear: break the silence of this crippling taboo and help those who suffer.
No one can be you and no one will ever really understand what you have gone through and how it has effected your soul. But we must never let that stop us or cause us pain. "Guard your heart for out of it flow the issues of life." Search within it (your heart) and protect it. Most people will never understand except those of us who have gone through such violent abuse. Even in that we are all different and so are the various events surrounding what we survived. In addition, to how it has changed the original plans for our lives for a time. We are also effected on many different levels based on our personalities, gifting and the psychology of who we were and are now. But the important aspect of it all is that we're still here and there are those of us who understand and so with this I say, you are not alone. You are important, powerful, beautiful, needed, admired, warrior giant-slayers, amazing individuals that can now do things that no one else has ever dreamed of.
This weeks quote
It is this belief in a power larger than myself and other than myself which allows me to venture into the unknown and even the unknowable.
Ms. Angelou, shares a profound statement, that is to say, "The Unknowable" this is the deepest form that we can reach in possibilities in life. At the same time it's simple as it replies to our individual areas of not knowing what is truly possible in our own lives, even when we seem at times - in hell, in a trafficked situation, in a bondage situation, or emotionally crippled by/from such. But as she writes "believing in a power larger than myself." How - can I say this to all... With God all things are possible. And we are made with extraordinary power when we operate knowing this.
I pray this be the most amazing and happiest time of your life. I also pray for those still kidnapped, captured and lost. I know we have our work cut out for us but I know we will be victorious.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I am thankful to our new corporate attorneys. Our part-time drop-in center coming in January, the street team out reach in Florida done with the help of my friends from Courtney's House and our group sessions and our new donated space. In addition to our collaboration with the Rebecca Project for Human Rights and of course the film tour with The International Black Women's Public Policy Institute and my mentor Barbara Perkins.
Look for my new book coming soon which I am so excited to share my lifes journey in ways that I never have and it is meant to inspire us and also the unveiling of my already published book of poetry "To Soar Without Leaving he Ground" which will I will now make affordable in Ibook form and free to those who cannot afford it at the moment. Many thanks to someone I love greatly Dr. Beverly Bam Crawford who recently ordained me in Los Angeles, CA
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